Tiny Vessels

Blair: Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. It's been... a while since my last confession.
Priest: What troubles you, my child?
Blair: (sighs) After being broken up with my boyfriend for exactly 20 minutes, I succumbed to inebriation, performed at a speakeasy, and surrendered my virtue to a self-absorbed ass. The only good news is that he's a total pig who'll act like it never happened, thank God.
Priest: Ahem.
Blair: Sorry. Truthfully, I'm not even Catholic.
Priest: You don't say.
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Due to my fiscal issues, I have been playing with the idea of signing up for new face 08 just to get some money to get new clothes. I know I probably won't make it past the qualifying round but hey it's like Alann and Schenelle say: "why live your life in fear?"

Anyway, I'm FINALLY done with the Terms chapter, although I'm still kinda confused about innominate terms. The courts seem very very arbitrary when it comes to deciding between conditions and warranties. I'll try my bestest best to put up stuff about the judiciary. In the meantime, I need to let stuff off my chest.

For some reason, I have this intuition to feel whether some people are fake or not. Now, although some people may have personalities that I don't agree with, I respect them nonetheless because that's exactly who they are. On the other hand, I detest people who aren't true to themselves just so that they can get people to like them.

Take for example, Caps. Firstly when she was queen bee (gawd i can't believe there was such a time) she never ever spoke to anyone outside her group. All of a sudden when my clique and I move up to the 8th floor she's all "Hi Schenelle... what's up? Can I shine your shoes and clean your shit (dramatisation)?" Thankfully, Schenelle just gave her the WTF look and a sheepish hi.

I could inexplicably tell that she was just trying to strike up conversation with a cooler kid, she didn't really care if Schenelle was well, all she cared about was not being totally disliked by the rest of the girls. Its like, she didn't give a damn about her during induction, and all of a sudden she's kissing her ass like she's all that? Yeah sure Schenelle's all that, but Caps certainly didn't think so from the start.

My point is, if she really wanted to make friends, she could start by 1) Stop having public embarrassing rows with her boyfriend (freaking noisy la, people trying to study can?) 2) Stop trying to suck up to people ( I haven't even started on the Sze Bim episode) and 3) Come clean about what happened during induction (every single painful detail, right down to backstabbing the only friend who cared about you after the whole thing at camp. I could've forgiven in a heartbeat everything that you did, but the backstabbing, and then LYING about it, I'll have to try more than a teeny bit harder).

This is stupid. She isn't even the one I'm frustrated with and I'm taking it out on her. Boy I'm messed up. It's just that after reading Catcher in the Rye like a year ago, it seems that almost anybody can be such a phony. That's my problem; I put everyone on a freaking pedestal and I blame them when they fail to live up to my expectations.

Miyo's voice: Always remember Bea, interest begets expectations and expectations beget disappointment, so the key to avoiding disappointment is to avoid interest.


Gotcha, BFF.