I just wanna get through next week. Alive. My starvation tendencies are back again, I fear that despite losing weight, I also lose hair.
Anyway, being with some people in school taught me certain things.
1. Never impose your will on others. They'll resent it and end up blaming you.
2. Keep your nose clean. Scandal will mar ANY amount of charisma or popularity you have.
3. Under no circumstances should your mouth be quicker than your brain.
4. You don't have to like everyone. But it'll definitely help if everyone likes you.
5. This is something I learned from Sharon: the association rule. You are judged by the company you keep. Kinda explains the fall from grace by a certain annoying someone who dated the wrong fat legged girl and went from pro to schmo.
6. You are also judged by what you wear. Not that you should dress to the nines everyday (but it helps!) but at least remember the most important maxim by Dale Carnegie: PRESENTATION IS EVERYTHING. If you dress like a ho, be ready to be treated like a ho. Dress like a slob and you'll get nothing but deodorant for your birthday (note: does not apply to exam period). Dress smart and classy, and people will automatically treat you with more respect.
7. People will like you if you actually give a damn.
8. Never esteem yourself higher than others. I'm still trying to get this part right, cos no one likes a pompus ass on her high horse judging everyone.
There. That's about everything I learned about dealing with people.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Expo '86
Sometimes I think this cycle never ends
We slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
And it seems by time that I had figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.
But if I move my place in line I'll lose.
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Damn my mood swings. All it takes is for the ipod rotation to come to any Death Cab for Cutie song and I instantly mellow down. Why does music have that effect on people?
Anyway, that reminds me of the time I was playing Tiny Vessels in 806 and it came to the part of the verse
So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
And Lincoln was like "why do you listen to this kinda music?" Well, 1) you have to listen to the song in its entirety and 2) songs like this always reminds people about their own lives. Even if the experience can be totally different from the one who penned the song, I say if the writer had managed to make you feel anything through the melody or the lyrics, he's more or less accomplished.
Besides, it beats listening to my daily "so i heard you liek mudkips" on Youtube (go find it and watch the whole thing, if you CAN).
Anyway I'm gonna have to do 3 chapters of Public Law tonight. Being the genius that I am, I left my worst subject (Criminal) in school, so I won't get them back 'til tomorrow.
***
It's hard to resist the dark side. They have cookies.
We slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
And it seems by time that I had figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.
But if I move my place in line I'll lose.
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Damn my mood swings. All it takes is for the ipod rotation to come to any Death Cab for Cutie song and I instantly mellow down. Why does music have that effect on people?
Anyway, that reminds me of the time I was playing Tiny Vessels in 806 and it came to the part of the verse
So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
And Lincoln was like "why do you listen to this kinda music?" Well, 1) you have to listen to the song in its entirety and 2) songs like this always reminds people about their own lives. Even if the experience can be totally different from the one who penned the song, I say if the writer had managed to make you feel anything through the melody or the lyrics, he's more or less accomplished.
Besides, it beats listening to my daily "so i heard you liek mudkips" on Youtube (go find it and watch the whole thing, if you CAN).
Anyway I'm gonna have to do 3 chapters of Public Law tonight. Being the genius that I am, I left my worst subject (Criminal) in school, so I won't get them back 'til tomorrow.
***
It's hard to resist the dark side. They have cookies.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Wouldn't it be nice...
to have an inexhaustible supply of smoked salmon?
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I'm on a very pink run now. While I still love orange, I'd like most of my accessories to be pink. Like my PSP. And Senheiser earphones. And my general makeup application (walking proof that Anna Sui turns people into living dead dolls). Vish's party is in 6 hours, but i may go a little later than that. I mean I'm bringing cookies to it. Who eats cookies during dinnertime?!
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I'm on a very pink run now. While I still love orange, I'd like most of my accessories to be pink. Like my PSP. And Senheiser earphones. And my general makeup application (walking proof that Anna Sui turns people into living dead dolls). Vish's party is in 6 hours, but i may go a little later than that. I mean I'm bringing cookies to it. Who eats cookies during dinnertime?!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
The New Year
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
And I could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.
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OK, so yesterday's rant was partly caused by PMS, but I'm still rather peeved. I really can't stand it when the only jokes some people are capable of cracking contain nothing but sexual references. Freaking annoying can. Some people never fail to put a damper on my afternoons and dinners*.
Disclaimer: Don't blame me for your own paranoia if you think I'm referring to you. If it is you, then take a damn hint and shut the freak up. I'm not the only one who thinks this way; if i was, I'd tolerate you for the greater good. But you're really polluting the atmosphere for some of us. If you end up hating me for this, so be it. That's something that I'm gonna have to live with for the rest of my life. I just hope you know that the things you do aren't appreciated by some of us.
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
And I could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.
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OK, so yesterday's rant was partly caused by PMS, but I'm still rather peeved. I really can't stand it when the only jokes some people are capable of cracking contain nothing but sexual references. Freaking annoying can. Some people never fail to put a damper on my afternoons and dinners*.
Disclaimer: Don't blame me for your own paranoia if you think I'm referring to you. If it is you, then take a damn hint and shut the freak up. I'm not the only one who thinks this way; if i was, I'd tolerate you for the greater good. But you're really polluting the atmosphere for some of us. If you end up hating me for this, so be it. That's something that I'm gonna have to live with for the rest of my life. I just hope you know that the things you do aren't appreciated by some of us.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Tiny Vessels
Blair: Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. It's been... a while since my last confession.
Priest: What troubles you, my child?
Blair: (sighs) After being broken up with my boyfriend for exactly 20 minutes, I succumbed to inebriation, performed at a speakeasy, and surrendered my virtue to a self-absorbed ass. The only good news is that he's a total pig who'll act like it never happened, thank God.
Priest: Ahem.
Blair: Sorry. Truthfully, I'm not even Catholic.
Priest: You don't say.
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Due to my fiscal issues, I have been playing with the idea of signing up for new face 08 just to get some money to get new clothes. I know I probably won't make it past the qualifying round but hey it's like Alann and Schenelle say: "why live your life in fear?"
Anyway, I'm FINALLY done with the Terms chapter, although I'm still kinda confused about innominate terms. The courts seem very very arbitrary when it comes to deciding between conditions and warranties. I'll try my bestest best to put up stuff about the judiciary. In the meantime, I need to let stuff off my chest.
For some reason, I have this intuition to feel whether some people are fake or not. Now, although some people may have personalities that I don't agree with, I respect them nonetheless because that's exactly who they are. On the other hand, I detest people who aren't true to themselves just so that they can get people to like them.
Take for example, Caps. Firstly when she was queen bee (gawd i can't believe there was such a time) she never ever spoke to anyone outside her group. All of a sudden when my clique and I move up to the 8th floor she's all "Hi Schenelle... what's up? Can I shine your shoes and clean your shit (dramatisation)?" Thankfully, Schenelle just gave her the WTF look and a sheepish hi.
I could inexplicably tell that she was just trying to strike up conversation with a cooler kid, she didn't really care if Schenelle was well, all she cared about was not being totally disliked by the rest of the girls. Its like, she didn't give a damn about her during induction, and all of a sudden she's kissing her ass like she's all that? Yeah sure Schenelle's all that, but Caps certainly didn't think so from the start.
My point is, if she really wanted to make friends, she could start by 1) Stop having public embarrassing rows with her boyfriend (freaking noisy la, people trying to study can?) 2) Stop trying to suck up to people ( I haven't even started on the Sze Bim episode) and 3) Come clean about what happened during induction (every single painful detail, right down to backstabbing the only friend who cared about you after the whole thing at camp. I could've forgiven in a heartbeat everything that you did, but the backstabbing, and then LYING about it, I'll have to try more than a teeny bit harder).
This is stupid. She isn't even the one I'm frustrated with and I'm taking it out on her. Boy I'm messed up. It's just that after reading Catcher in the Rye like a year ago, it seems that almost anybody can be such a phony. That's my problem; I put everyone on a freaking pedestal and I blame them when they fail to live up to my expectations.
Miyo's voice: Always remember Bea, interest begets expectations and expectations beget disappointment, so the key to avoiding disappointment is to avoid interest.
Gotcha, BFF.
Priest: What troubles you, my child?
Blair: (sighs) After being broken up with my boyfriend for exactly 20 minutes, I succumbed to inebriation, performed at a speakeasy, and surrendered my virtue to a self-absorbed ass. The only good news is that he's a total pig who'll act like it never happened, thank God.
Priest: Ahem.
Blair: Sorry. Truthfully, I'm not even Catholic.
Priest: You don't say.
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Due to my fiscal issues, I have been playing with the idea of signing up for new face 08 just to get some money to get new clothes. I know I probably won't make it past the qualifying round but hey it's like Alann and Schenelle say: "why live your life in fear?"
Anyway, I'm FINALLY done with the Terms chapter, although I'm still kinda confused about innominate terms. The courts seem very very arbitrary when it comes to deciding between conditions and warranties. I'll try my bestest best to put up stuff about the judiciary. In the meantime, I need to let stuff off my chest.
For some reason, I have this intuition to feel whether some people are fake or not. Now, although some people may have personalities that I don't agree with, I respect them nonetheless because that's exactly who they are. On the other hand, I detest people who aren't true to themselves just so that they can get people to like them.
Take for example, Caps. Firstly when she was queen bee (gawd i can't believe there was such a time) she never ever spoke to anyone outside her group. All of a sudden when my clique and I move up to the 8th floor she's all "Hi Schenelle... what's up? Can I shine your shoes and clean your shit (dramatisation)?" Thankfully, Schenelle just gave her the WTF look and a sheepish hi.
I could inexplicably tell that she was just trying to strike up conversation with a cooler kid, she didn't really care if Schenelle was well, all she cared about was not being totally disliked by the rest of the girls. Its like, she didn't give a damn about her during induction, and all of a sudden she's kissing her ass like she's all that? Yeah sure Schenelle's all that, but Caps certainly didn't think so from the start.
My point is, if she really wanted to make friends, she could start by 1) Stop having public embarrassing rows with her boyfriend (freaking noisy la, people trying to study can?) 2) Stop trying to suck up to people ( I haven't even started on the Sze Bim episode) and 3) Come clean about what happened during induction (every single painful detail, right down to backstabbing the only friend who cared about you after the whole thing at camp. I could've forgiven in a heartbeat everything that you did, but the backstabbing, and then LYING about it, I'll have to try more than a teeny bit harder).
This is stupid. She isn't even the one I'm frustrated with and I'm taking it out on her. Boy I'm messed up. It's just that after reading Catcher in the Rye like a year ago, it seems that almost anybody can be such a phony. That's my problem; I put everyone on a freaking pedestal and I blame them when they fail to live up to my expectations.
Miyo's voice: Always remember Bea, interest begets expectations and expectations beget disappointment, so the key to avoiding disappointment is to avoid interest.
Gotcha, BFF.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Thursday, January 31, 2008
My Life as Everything in Transit
This post is about how my life relates to the Jack's Mannequin album.
Holiday From Real: Vacation anthem for slackers. Plays in my head every time school is out.
The Mixed Tape: The time I was really into photoshop and I made tons of emo wallpapers. I did them mostly for friends and was about anime.
Bruised: That trip to Sarawak in Christmas 2005 and that traumatic game of 'I Never'
I'm Ready: Pretty much the same as Andrew Mcmahon's, my first breakup and trying my best to face everyday life
La La Lie: The times I spent with Zach at the beach.
Dark Blue: The late night classes and going home together with my friends
Miss Delaney: When I got pissed at my friend for being an asshole to a girl.
Rescued: Every rough part of my relationship with Zach
MFEO: Evatte and Apple and how we'd hang out at Jeanette's house and get drunk in the afternoon by playing stupid games and shit
Into the Airwaves: How Miyona sees the world. She doodles goldfish on her notes with 'this fishbowl life is all they need'.
The Lights and Buzz: Everything is so different after one year. Reminds me of driving on the ECP.
OK now it's Miyo's turn to list!
Holiday From Real: Vacation anthem for slackers. Plays in my head every time school is out.
The Mixed Tape: The time I was really into photoshop and I made tons of emo wallpapers. I did them mostly for friends and was about anime.
Bruised: That trip to Sarawak in Christmas 2005 and that traumatic game of 'I Never'
I'm Ready: Pretty much the same as Andrew Mcmahon's, my first breakup and trying my best to face everyday life
La La Lie: The times I spent with Zach at the beach.
Dark Blue: The late night classes and going home together with my friends
Miss Delaney: When I got pissed at my friend for being an asshole to a girl.
Rescued: Every rough part of my relationship with Zach
MFEO: Evatte and Apple and how we'd hang out at Jeanette's house and get drunk in the afternoon by playing stupid games and shit
Into the Airwaves: How Miyona sees the world. She doodles goldfish on her notes with 'this fishbowl life is all they need'.
The Lights and Buzz: Everything is so different after one year. Reminds me of driving on the ECP.
OK now it's Miyo's turn to list!
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